It has been a while since I felt this way.

This feeling

Crawling back up

Under my skin

Growing into my arteries

It’s the rush pumped into my veins

Boosting to my brain

Making it warm

Warm

I am feeling warm

My sweat glands are opening

I can feel the breeze going through my skin

Cooling me down

Bringing me down

I’ve been on this boat for too long

The captain has readied the plank for me

It is time for me to walk off

Am I ready?

Will I be able to withstand the fall?

What will meet me down there?

I can’t fall into the sea

I don’t know if I’ll survive

‘But there’s no turning back now.

Everybody is watching

All the people on the ship

They’re all there

All eyes

Staring at me

Waiting for me to walk off

Anxious to see

All eyes are me

I am looking back at myself.

Falling.